Extract from my Diary, 2018 September

Wind is energy, energy is movement of a force that is invisible to the eye, yet felt with different particles of the body. Here I am, sitting on a bench in Vallikäär, feeling the energy of the wind and warm rays of the autumnal sun. I hear the leaves shaking and moving on the trees and on the ground….

I very much love to hear the sound of leaves in the wind as there is something really calming and soothing in it. I feel calm, quiet, especially after 3 consequent days of stomach ache which has somehow been woken up again after quite calm and pain free period. Today, from 10.20-13.55 we were together with XXXX in Da Vinci figuring out her WHY we just started the process with her today. I was proud of her personally that she opened up completely and I was able to give her all of my attention. Neither of us checked the phone during the whole time and we were fully present. She is getting there, to dig deeper into herself and realizing her own uniqueness, strengths, weaknesses, abilities, needs, desires, inner drive… After almost 4 hrs we got mapped out the things/ people she is grateful now, her strengths and skills she wants to improve and the map of her most influential happenings, events, people, she has encountered so far and what/ who have played major role in her development process.

Time is precious, so use it wisely – easy to say, but even more interesting to follow the valuable suggestion. Also know, that there is time for everything you and your soul needs to learn, realize it, embrace it, learn from it.

We are constantly challenged by interesting circumstances and people in our lives, who pop in both short and long term, some with breaks in between and some only for a really very short time. Also what I have experienced and learned throughout the years the more you get to know you, the more you educate yourself on the topics that are dear to you and apply them in your everyday life- the better you are able to see and feel the bigger picture and understand people and different circumstances more deeply and the less you are eager to judge or to talk badly.

Yes, you slip, still, but instead of just stating the fact that this or that person is stupid or whatever…. Instead, you should try to analyze where they come from, try to understand their so-called “pain body” which pushes them to act this or that way. 

This is exactly why it it truly vital to take time to know yourself – deeply, truly, meaningfully. Go into yourself, explore the unknown by challenging yourself with questions, experiences, people, circumstances. It is truly accurately said that each and everyone´s normality is their reality, yet the question always arises – what is normality, what is reality? One thing is for sure that it is largely based on our values and beliefs, the experiences we have had and so much more. So in order to at least “get the idea” what they are, we need to take time to think about them and know and feel what they really mean to us.

The more aware you are the more humble, loving and loved you become. Each and every person needs to be treated with honesty, respect, love, understanding, including YOURSELF. That means if you feel that someone is not treating you the way you would kindly treat them, you are allowed to depart from them, both mentally and physically, because it truly really is up to you who is in charge of your own peace and happiness, love, fulfillment and joy. So start now, start with you, be in charge and show respect towards yourself and others.

Only you know what is inside of you, nobody else, so may that power work with you and for you from now on!

You are powerful, loving, successful, loved, talented, intelligent, caring and respected. So please, take full responsibility of your life now and choose wisely to what and whom you give your energy and attention to.

Be kind towards everyone, starting from yourself and embrace the journey as life is actually about truly learning to enjoy the journey not only the destination as the value of the destination is the sum total of all the steps you took, experiences you had, emotions you felt and the challenges you overcame, the people you met and the learning process of yourself all along the interesting way. 

Stay humble, be curious, be for love, be courageous and for human connection.

Breathe in….deeply, breathe out fully love, peace and patience…. all is good, all is well, all is love.

With love from Pärnu

Errit Kuldkepp